ほっし校長 [Confession] Surgery declared to have amputation of the right leg 〖How to feel when leaving the hospital room〗
I confess my cry of heart when I was sentenced to amputation of my right leg.
“I will never give up. I will definitely treat my cancer!”
I couldn’t say the words that everyone around me wanted and could feel at ease.
But I didn’t want to give up.
Affected area at the base of the right foot affected by cancer cells.
The cancer that I developed is called osteosarcoma, which is a type of cancer that develops in the bone, and it was a cancer with very few cases.
In the case of cancer that develops in the bone, it cannot be easily removed, so it was necessary to remove a wide area including the affected area.
The surgery was also a big one, and in my case I was preparing to amputate my right leg.
Immediately before heading to the operating room, I stood on the bed in the hospital room with both feet and changed into a surgical gown.
“I still have my right foot.”
However, it may be gone after surgery.
I was bullish a while ago, but suddenly anxiety and fear rushed from my chest.
Goosebumps were transmitted from the right foot to the whole body, and the body became stiff.
The surgical assistant teacher came to pick me up in the hospital room.
“Let’s go now”
I lay down on the bed to move to the operating room.
The bed to move to the operating room felt very stiff and cold.
At the same time as I felt the coldness, some words passed in my head for a moment.
“…”
However, I couldn’t recognize the word clearly.
Then, in response to the words, I got up a little and suddenly looked into my right foot.
“I still have my right foot.”
If you go to the operating room as it is, you may lose your right leg.
However,
“If I escape from this place from now on, my right foot will remain.”
“It’s not too late yet!”
I didn’t want to lose my right leg.
“I can’t give up.”
“Because I’ve only been using this foot for 10 years since I was born.”
I endured tears and cried in my heart.
There were a lot of adults around me lying on the bed moving to the operating room,
No one would have noticed my feelings.
and,
The bed for moving to the operating room where I was placed was carried out of the hospital room.
After all, I didn’t run away
No, I just didn’t have the courage to escape.
but,
At the end, I became honest with my heart.
Lying on the bed for transportation, looking up at the ceiling of the corridor,
[Prepared]
At that moment
The phrase “I don’t want to lose my right leg!”
It was
I was blown away somewhere and lost sight of it.
To replace it,
“I want to continue living more”
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This was the last word of my heart when I was 10 years old just before I fell asleep under anesthesia.
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生き抜く力【ガンと闘う10歳の僕に起きた奇跡】｜ほっし校長｜note
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